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Posted: Sun Jan 27, 2008 5:32 pm

Life for the muffin is not a good one at the moment. That's why I have not been on lately. I apologize.

The muffin is having a hard time with relationships and friends. I have lost one and feel as if I have lost another.

As for relationships, the muffin is incapable of having one. I always seem to screw them up; like I get suspicious because my last boyfriend was always touching other girls, even in front of me. Then the one after that one had a girlfriend and he broke up with her to go out with me. I was suspicious because his ex kept coming over to his house every Saturday. I told my other friend about it and she said that it was fishy looking. I confronted him and took my talking to my other friend the wrong way and he flipped on the muffin and broke it off.

We both realized that it wasn't going to work after that and we decided to be friends again Sadly, the muffin is no longer friends with him. He said that he was going to keep the Ren lock I gave him as a reminder of the friendship we have had since Elementary school. He gave it to my friend to give it back to me. I guess it was because I told him that I thought I still had feelings for my other ex (both are not on good terms with each other).

It hurt when he gave it back. It really did. I didn't cry though, I didn't want to because I was in school. I didn't think of it as my friend took the lock and placed it around her neck. It kind of made me feel better.

Later when the muffin got home, the muffin got ready for work. I went to work and was my cheerful loud and smiling self. Working gives the muffin too much time to think. I gradually fell into a despair and I wasn't happy anymore.

I told my other friend (Whom I have also known since Elementary school) that I had lost my other friend and she text me back with "Oh, well! That's what makes the world go round."

I messaged her back saying "If you don't want me to bother you, I'll stop. Afterall, all I cause is drama." She hasn't text me back ._.

I guess I know who my real friend is through all this happening.

Pet Joined: 14 Mar 2006 Posts: 448 Location: USA

Muffin, I think you just need to clear your mind for a while and give some time between your friends and then later talk to them and see if you can't recreate the bond of friendship. Losing a friend doesn't make the world go round. That would be....the sun which creates night and day and they call that rotation and while the earth rotates it makes a revolution to creating the seasons o-o;; I'm hoping that might cheer you up just a little by giving you a laugh...but then again....I'm not very good at being funny. Your friends really do care about you, but I believe they may be going through troubles as well. You should just talk to them and see what is circling around their heads as well. I wish you best of luck.

Also, you can have a good relationshiop. You just haven't met the right person. Don't worry to much about dating right now, get everything for your future settled down and then worry about love life. Hope things work out.